bloGgie…..

d day began like any other day..where my dad starts yelling at me!! ahha…then we went for our dance performance at Bukit Bintang monorail station..tat was a bit dumb la..coz it was sooo cramped up..but we performed brilliantly, so who cares?/haha..n wats more, we got had toothbrushes all..i got 3 travelling toothbrushes..kalai took one after tat though.haiy..after our bootylicious dancing, we went to watch anil(our abang) perform in Ruums..they were actually good..but the band after them sucked big time..haha..then we did the most wackiest thing in the world..we decided to drive down to port dickson at arnd 10 at nite!! talk bout madness being us!! but the madness doesnt stop there.sharlini actually said she’s goin for her frens sisters’s funeral just to come wif us!!so here we go along..first to fetch sha frm kepong, karlz had to leave me n nav while she go pick sha.we were like hookers cari pelanggan at esso siut!!haha..thers where nav wanted to do the unthinkable n pee in a hole..thank god for small favours k..haha..sum man was looking frm his car, n thus she decided no too.haha.then we started out journey, after stoping at mcd’s to pee n get food( the third time i was eating at mcd’s on tat day.god help me!!)..nav had to of course feed her never ending crave for beer first!! haha..then the actually journey began. not tat we knew how to actually get there, let alone at nite, but we sumhow managed to find our way there. to find the god-forsaken beach itself took ur about half n hour..hahah..i tell u, wen we actually got the the beach n walked towards the water, i swear we were like small kids again..haha..d tiny toodler in us came out n we went wild..hahah..nav n i specially enjoyed the waves for reasons only known to the four of us..haha…we also had the oppoturnity to name our own island..we called it the " KANASHANI" island..hahaha..then we went all the way to sum hotel just to pee..haha..how mad can we get..well, lots more mad stuff we did like laughing like hantu, playing in the rain till we’re soaking wet n the list goes on..but me hafta go fetch my bro now..so tats all for now..this is all ur gonna know..but for us that went,the memory will b in our hearts n mind FOREVER..hhahahah remeber our pact guys?? hahaha KANASHANI forever…or sumthing like tat

why do some guys take joy is other ppl’s pain n misery?? u waltz in all high and mighty and just trample on our hearts withour mercy. wtf is wrong wif u?? do u get a kick in doing that?? u pretend and lie just to get laid.n when it doesn’t work,next target pls…just grow up k…ur old enough to have some sense…all u are is just some perverted creature..just grow up k….coming frm sum one who is alone …hah!!! ppl have trusted u…but u let them down…u’ve totally lost d trust man…n u so deserve it…

its been so long since my last post!!!!! haiy…hahahaha…well..college life is gud so far…tiring but gud…i guess its thanx to d ppl around me la…like my "pretend" family!!! hahahahaha…..shak’s really gud at mummy-ingt and shan’s like the best daddy ever…hahahaha..not forgettin bambi baby la….she seems younger than me at times…hahahaha…..ever had ur wisdom tooth grow n feel d pain?? well, go comfort bambi pls…..she’s suffering so much….hahahaha….n i also met this cunted guy who really captured my heart..haiy..im cair-ing already!!!!! hahahahahaha….well…class awaits me now….

wooo hoo….finally my spm’s over….i’ve been waiting for this beautiful moment for so long…haha..practically all my life!!! hahaha…life afta tat has been sweet…wen to penagn imediately afta tat…syok la..then went to chilies wif the pretty’s and jj…dam farny la…he tot buffolo wings were ACTUAL BUFFOLO MEAT!!!! malufying la…every one pandang us semacam..so memalu klan….then wen we ordered the bottemless chips..he like jakun wen they refillled it….d salsa pun he called it "chicken rice chilly sauce"…oue face all dunno where to put!! haha….then we went to mj’s pool party…got wet thanx to JJ aso la….my skirt basah tak kering kering…..teruk bah….hahahaha….afta xmas i went to s’pore…tat was dam fun!!! was drinking a lot too…thanx to ppl who kept refilling me wif drinks….n glenn who made dunno wat nonsence all n gave me to drink…dam strong la….haha…but its was all cool…hahaha….still in s’pore now….dun wanna go back la…having too much fun..hahaha..well gotta go out wif my cuzzy now…will b back..tata…muaxX

hahahaha….my add math xm paper 1 is just over….it wasn’t tat terrible though…untill question 7 i was doin fine….then after tat…hahahahaha….well, mayb this is d subject where my miracle happens…n trust me i need it…im at jerry’s hse now…he’s cooking spag for us!!! lets hope no food poisoning ya…hahaha….jk la….afta he merajuk susah plak me…hahahahaha…..well…d past xm’s weren’t that bad la…as in wun fail la..haha…d a1 then not confirm lah….well…i guess tats all for now….so many ppl here la…malu habis habis me…hahahahaha…..tata

janjimu

bagai bayu meniupi mukaku

yang singgah sebentar

dan hilang selamanya

promises

encouranging words for the moment

then soon forgotten

never really meant

janjimu

bagai ubat untuk lukaku

yang sangat diharapkan

tetapi hanya dihampakan

promises

lifted my spirits up high

believing i would soar again

but it all came crushing down

haruskah ku terus harapkan

janji-janji kosong mu

building false hope in me

till i just fall again

i sometimes wonder wat do guys actually want for us gurls??? owh, b4 i start rambling on,not ALL guys are like dis ya….only some..gurls pun ada yang like dis…neway,wen they need a fren, someone to turn to for help or in boredom,wen they r in sticky shit ….they come to us gurls for help n solutions….if it goes wrong,its our fault…they blame us…hello???? did we force u to make the keputusan???..u chose to do it,u jolly well face the consequences urself..if it doesn’t go wrong, the guys get the credit for our advice….does that seem fair to u??? though most of the time its really ok…we dun mind u taking our advice n passing it as ur own….though wen it tak jadi,its still "ur" advice get it!!!!!……but THEN…wen they do not need advice, wen they r not bored, wen their life is just fine….dump d fren!!! treat the person like trash…ignore d person to the max!!!!…wat is wrong wif u ppl….we’re not here just to be ur shrinks n give u answers ok n fill the time in ur bored day…..we have our own problems,feelings and our own lives to get on with…..if tats all ur looking for in a "fren" go to ur guru kaunseling in skewl or something la….wen they need us..we r supposed to drop everything n attend to them alone….i pernah got ban from using d phone frm my parents bcoz of sum ppl….we get into a lot of shit with other ppl,bcoz this one person expects us to be there wen its sesuai for them…my fren even had to call a particular guy at 2.30am just bcoz the guy wanted to talk!!!!!….dun get me wrong…its fine to ask advice from a fren..but wen advice is not needed…treat tat fren like a true fren..not just sumone for u to dump all ur problems on ok….n in turn, be there for the ppl who have helped u out the most..they were there for u …dun u tink the least u could do is be there for them too???….its not all about u, u noe!!!…..tats not really a lot to ask for izzit?? tats called being a true fren..a ’soldier of christ’ as my abang said last nite….btw , thanx for everything ger!!!lurve u soooo much.wat would i do without my abang.he managed to put me to sleep last nite…oops..gettin side tracked r we now…so..ya..treat frens like REAL ppl..not just a rug on the floor,where if ur legs r wet, u wipe them…and wen ur legs are dry,ignore it…and im not just talking from my own experience…i’ve witnessed the same thing in a number of my close buddies….all we ask is not to be hurt so badly…is tat too much????

my heart…

bila kita mencintai yang lain

mungkin kah hati ini akan tegar

sebisa mungkin tak akan pernah

sayang ku akan hilang

if u love somebody

could we be this strong

i will fight to win

our love will conquer all

wouldn’t risk my love

even just one night

our love stay in my heart

my heart

OMG!!!! i so love tat song…d lyrics above is just d chorus though….soooo nice..its sung by irwanshah ft acha….i totally lurve it….other nice songs would be KENANGAN TERINDAH and CINTA….damn nice!!! wakakaka….i think d repeat function on my mp4 player gonna rosak adi…akibat repeating this song over n over again…hahahaha….neway, i had i really weird dream last nite…been having many weird dreams recently…me n my family were in genting…(my family din even look familiar)..n it wasnt cold at all…there was a huge waterfall to mandi in…and the surroundings were like a lush clubhouse….it was there i met my frens…namely gerard and julian santhanadass(counted as fren ah??)…of all ppl them …hahaha…oh, and there was another botak dude with them..tapi i tak knal him….i actually met them in the ladies toilet k!!! no doubt they got a few stares la….so pelik la…neway, i was lepaking with them for so long…till my baby cousin grew up….how weird is tat??…i think im goin crazy….hahaha..my dainty brains finally giving way…haiy…there goes my spm..haha…i so hope not la…aiyo, just remembered got tons of homework to do…sungguh kemalasan…

here’s a poem dedicated to all my bestest buddies…espacially edeline,xtine,pope bobo,,jj,gerard( yes u!!),mondo,mel,ziera and sooo many more…n to all my other frens ya…

while everything around me was crumbling

you were my pillar of strength

giving me hope to move and carry on

always there for me no matter the cost

when i was soaring high or crawling down below

never giving up on me

never looking down on me

always with something encouraging to say

and telling me not to let fear stand in the way

you saw me through the dark parts of life

and now you’ll stay for the bright ones

i appreciate all that you have done

i owe you my life, this i noe for sure

now that you have passed the test of life

i know u’ll stay by me for eternity

i said " im scared"

u said " i’ll protect u"

i said " im sad"

u said " let me cheer u up"

i said " im depressed n want to die"

u said " pray n have faith"

Then it all changed

i said " i need someone to talk to"

u said " i’ll call u sometime" , but never did

i said " i hate my life"

u said " your life isn’t as bad as mine"

i said " please help me"

u said " erm…im sorry…i cant"

why do things have to change

They were fine before

now if i were to say " goodbye"

you would most probly say " finally"